Christmas...

AHHHHH!

We are finally back from our week long trip up north. We actually had a great time...every year I dread the snowmobile trip. I hate the cold, I hate being cold, I hate having to put a coat on just to go outside, everything about it makes me onry. BUT for some reason this years trip went so good. We were up in a cabin for 3 days, the only day I went riding we went on a full day trip. Left in the morning snowmobiled up to a remote little po-dunk of a cabin and ate lunch. Then on the way back down we stopped and went to a hot springs and then back home. The kids were with us the whole time and really liked it. They did polarbears in the snow, and fell asleep on the way back home. Kase even lost his glove, but was to tired to care!

We spent time with my mom and siblings and I had a shoot in Boise which was so much fun...more on that later. I even saw my ex-boyfriend. (He is good friends with my family so it is not so strange) It was nice to talk to him...I even had some "what if" thoughts while we were talking. I came to the conclussion that Justin has made me stronger, and more spiritual (not that I am anywhere close to where I need to be). I have grown so much from our relationship. It has been a hard marriage and I have wished for an easier road but I think that

if you dont have trails and struggles you don't cherish the good things in your life.

Christmas day was good. The kids had fun...the tramp is almost up and that will be fun to play on. I was disappointed agian. Justin was shopping at walmart the night before and ended up getting 2 shelf organizers for me and that was it. Then he had the balls to start complaining about his gifts, they werent the right size, he didnt like this, didnt like that. Seriously? I should just learn to buy and wrap my own presents. I dont know why I think Justin will do anything for me. Or maybe next year we will do a family gift and I will buy it so I actually get something. I did buy something for my stocking so the kids didn't think santa thought I was naughty! Anyway, I shouldnt care about things like that, he acted like he was actually doing something for me and that is why I got my hopes up. Stupid me.

I feel like life is slowing down quiet a bit and that is good. I am still booking shoots and am almost full for January which is great. I have 2 really good friends having babies this month, I cant wait for that! I am hoping to save enought money to get an TV armore for my bedroom in the next month or so. Merry Christmas to me!