Day 2

We went to the Character Breakfast first thing. The kids LOVED it! The first person that came to our table was Captin Hook and Kase was terrified of him. But he quickly understood that Hook was nice and wasnt going to get mad or anything. It took Macie a while to warm up to the Characters, but when Minnie Mouse came she jumped down and hugged her! Right after breakfast we went over to storytime, We heard Belle and Cinderella's stories. This was my favorite part of Disneyland. We were all swept away by the stories. Cinderella said that Macie looked just like one of her little sisiters and that she was beautiful. She was so gracefull and elegant, Kase was IN LOVE!

We went on a couple rides, small world was one of them.

Then it was off to Fronterland we waited forever (seriously hours) to meet Woody but it was well worth it! When Kase met him the first thing that he did was grap Kase's Woody doll. He danced around with it and then stuck it in his gun holster. Kase Loved that! We all were laughing. How can we bet this experience? It was so great for the kids!


Characters met...Captin Hook, Tigger, Pooh, Minnie Mouse, Jessie, Woody, Cinderella, Belle, Dale, Alice in Wonderland, Mat Hatter

Day 1

9:00 AM we are at the Disneyland gates. Justin and I are not getting along at all...surprize, surprize. Vacations always do this to us, I was hoping that it wouldn't be like this but this is us. We fight. But I am proud of myself, I calm down and brush it off and we have a great day.

The first ride we went on was the Tea Cups, then Pinocchio (sp) and then the Buzz ride. Kase got to met Buzz and he LOVED it! We spent most of the day on rides or in line to ride rides. Then at 5:00 we went to the Block Party which was the highlight of the day. Woody jumped down and pointed directly at Kase, it was perfect! AL he could talk about was how Woody knew him, that is why he pointed at him! So cute!

Characters met today...Buzz, Peter Pan, Wendy, Tinkerbell, Mickey Mouse, and Goofy.

My last Entry

...before we leave for Disneyland! Yes it is 2:00 am and I am still up. I can't sleep. I seriously am sooo dang excited!

Well today was as expected...CRAZY! Justin left at 5:30 this morning to drive to SLC to take a test for his business. We got up early and tried to get as much as we could accompilshed before Kase's last Soccer game. We also went and picked up the Mini-Van that we are driving to California. Then we went to the soccer game...oops! I thought it was at 11:15 but it was at 10:30...we missed his last game! Crap I felt so bad! Then I called my family and had them pray for Justin, which helped because he passed it...just barely! If he would missed one question he would have failed it! woohoo! Then rest of the day was packing and cleaning, untill Kase woke up from his nap with an ear ache and blood coming out of his ear. Great! We go to instacare and sit for 2 hrs to have the Dr. say it is just a little scratch and wrote us a perscription. I am glad nothing too tragic was going on, I would hate for him to be sick while we are gone! We got home at 8:30, kids bathed, and in bed and I (yes just I) finished up the packing , cleaning and I started our Christmas cards and I made Macie Necklesses to match every outfit she has for the trip. Yeah I have too much time on my hands! I can go into the excusses as to why I am doing all the unnessisary things at 2 am but I wont! Besides then I would have to justify why I typing on this blog at 2 am!! I think that I am finally starting to wear down and get tired so I must go to bed, we have a long day ahead of us! No we have a LONG(packed) WEEK! Later!!!!

Woooooo!

I am pooped! I have been running around like crazy the last few days, we are trying to get ready for Disnetland...we have 2 more days before we leave!!!!! I am trying to get bags packed early so I feel more prepared and not so rushed. I am also trying to get my house ready , my Mom will be staying in our house while we are gone and i want it to be perfect!!! I want to finished the projects and all this stuff that I keep making! I am in the middle of painting magnet boards and frames for christmas and for our house and I am painting Macies bed. I think that this will be the last coat and her bed can go up tomarrow...thank godness!!

I have some last minute photography things to do, pictures to order before I leave and I am soooo tired! I feel like I am 12 and it is Christmas. I cant sleep, I think and talk about Disneyland. This all so exciting!!! I cant wait to see the kids met thier Heros. I cant wait to soak up the feeling of disneyland!!! I am going to have to bring tissues because I know I will be so excited, I will start bawling. LOL!!!



I also made myself sit down and scrap this week, this is the first page I have done in months. I just ordered pictures so I can start it up agian...I am hoping I will have a scrap table before Christmas...:) We will see!

Sometimes I wonder

I wonder why some people struggle to have children and why others don't. It seems that most of the people I know that have a hard time having babies are the best moms, and that some of the ones that have them easily are not. I feel like this more when I look at myself. I have two dear friends who have struggled for sometime to get pregnant, I have watched them with their kid(s) that they do have and I think..."It is not fair, why do they have to struggle, they are excellence parents." You can see that they deserve to have more kids. "and why do I have mine, they are much better moms then me." I don't deserve the kids I have.

So why? Why was I blessed and they are not? I am not saying that I abuse my children or anything. I just could be better, better then I am and I feel guilty that at times I take my sweet children for granted. I guess right it is hard for me to see "the plan" in everything. I am feeling a mix of emotion for some friends and guilty that I don't do better.

Work and the Glory

If you have not seen this movie...GO SEE IT! Not only is the story of the Steeds great but the story of our Church is so real. The story of Joseph Smith, it is our history as LDS people. Watching the movie makes it more real. I really recommend going to see it!

We Bought a Cabin!!!

Well actually it is just the frame of a cabin. We will spend the winter finishing it up and then re-sale it in the Spring. It actully is just the Frame, so we get to pick out floor plan and all. Justin and his Brother (Kris)will spend the time fixing it up, most likely every other weekend they will be up working on it. It is exciting, Justin will learn about construction from Kris and get to spend some good one on one time with his brother.

Reasons I love my Dad

He has always been there for me.

I know that he loves me, and respects me.

He calls me every week.

We have a great relationship.

I look forward to talking to him.

I love that my kids adore him.

He is Handome.

He is talented.

He takes pride in his work.

He is dependable.

He made the best out of a bad situation.

He is a good Dad...

He visited us, he would drive 6 hours to watch one of us perform or to be there for our birthday and then drive the 6 hours back home to an empty house.

I knew I could turn to him when Justin and I were having our marrital problems.

He stands up for me.

I love him because he is my Dad and he is the best Dad in the world!

Busy Day

I spent today, all day proofing photos. Woo lots of work, my bum is numb from sitting at the putter all day. But they are done! I finished my neices shoot, a bridal shoot (which I am in love with) and a Senior shoot. I am caught up as of today.

I also got photos ready for my portfolio and I got my website up and running... htt:/elementsphotography.smugbug.com

I am happy with it so far. I honestly takes hours for picture to upload!! I feel alot more professional and I dont have to worry about people "Stealing" their proofs anymore. So I must go and figure out why my house is sooo dirty and get ready for another shoot today. Dang this photography has taken off! Who would have guessed!

I have overdone myself

Super Saturday is this Saturday. I am thinking that offering to do this was just silly of me. Sounded fun at the time! Alot of my stress is this...It is Tuesday night Justin has about 20 Magnet boards to cut out and has he done it??? NOPE! Ok So I will let him do it on his own time. Mean while I just got the money collected and order what needed to be ordered. Hopefully it gets here in time. It is also Evening of Excellence on Sunday so I am trying to get photos taken of my sweet girls that have completed there Young Womenhood. Disneyland is soon approching, We are in the search of a good stroller. Drove to Vegas Last night to find nothing!!! But we got Kase a great new suit, he looks so handsome in it!!!

All of this and try to be super Mom & Super wife. I am AWESOME!!!

Autograph Books

I am seriously having scrap withdrawls. All my stuff is still in a closet, I don't have my new desk done yet. So that means no scraping for a while. I had to get some creativity out of my system so I made the kids little Autography Books for our Disneyland trip. I am soo excited about them. I am sure they will get totally trashed but Kase has been asking everyday, "can I use my Disneyland book yet?" and Macie says "Disneyland today?"

The beauty of Imperfection

This has been on my mind alot since our trip to rexburg, I feel like i need to get it written down.

A huge struggle in my life is the "internal dialog" (Dr. Phil) I tell to my self. It is so hard for me to give myself complaments, It is much easier to believe the negitive. But mostly the "negitive" stuff that I choose to believe is absolutly ridiculous.
"You are a bad Mom because you let Kase watch 1/2hr too much TV today."
"You are a bad Housewife because the tolets haven't been cleaned this week."
"Your a bad wife, sister, friend...whatever it is I can find a fault. Why cant I just say,

Kellie, OH WELL! house is dirty today, you said something stupid at church, macie hair wasn't done today...SO WHAT. Life will go on and all of this crap you keep telling yourself is just that ...crap. Stop beleiving the Lies, you love your kids, you love your hubby, your family, you work hard, you are talented! You are GOOD enough. You need to love yourself, charish yourself. Why is this so hard? I am creating my own little HELL. I can be good enough, good enough for me. This is a new personal goal, I am going to stop telling myself all the junk and replace it with possitive thoughts! Wish me luck!

Another day of Projects

I am in the process of refinishing a dresser for Kase's room, painting his bed and also Macie's bed. I am having a ModBod (www.themodbod.com) Shirt party tomarrow and I want my house to be perfect!!! Well I know that is not possible but I want it to be more finished then is is now.

I am hoping to get to the tutu's I am making my neice Avery and Macie for christmas started today. That might be too much to cram into today. Besides the fact that I am sitting at my putter at the moment! urrr I have got to get cleaning also. Maybe this party is not such a good idea! lol!

The Sectional is HERE!!

Wooohooo! It came four weeks early I was so excited! It feels like I have a home, I have furniture, nice furniture for once in our lives. It is such a great feeling. That might sound stupid, but it has been 5 long years of struggling, hardship, & never having any money. I just need to enjoy this moment. The sectional is just perfect!!!! I will have to post pictures later.

Oh wait Halloween is for the kids??

Yep I almost forgot about my cute little monkeys! I have a feeling every year is going to get more and more exciting . The kids had a great time, we came home with a ton of candy...which is now hidden away.
I thought they were sooo stinkin cute this year! Kase wanted so bad to be Buzz Lightyear so I gave in and bought a costume. (I usually make them) and while I was at it,I decided it would be much easier to buy Macies also. But i did have to sew hers just a bit to take the sides in. I got he cutest wings to match her dress on ebay. I figured i could buy them because i will use them a ton for photog props.. Double Duty!!
I actully liked buying them this year so much easier and i didnt have to sew...which mean I didnt have to get mad , sware and throw my sewing machine across the room. Yes i know, that sounds pathetic but i get it from my Mom. Sewing makes us angry. LOL!