Well I am closing this blog

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B-Day Party Pictures

The Ninjas....The Japanese Princesses

Eating with chop sticks!Yummy Chinese food....
Real authentic decoration....
The presents...
Table decorations....

Pre-K Graduation

I about peed my pants when I saw these little graduation outfits Mrs. Becky had for the kids! Doesn't she look all grown up? What a cute little girl she is becoming!

Kindergarden Graduation

Yes I know it is several months late BUT....I finally had a break from work to work on my own things :) All the kids in Kases class had a part to say and they all got to dress up for the part...Kase was the ROCK STAR!

My little sis!

I love this girl to death! She is has more personality then all of our family combined! She is staying with me this month, helping me with my kids and just keeping me company. She makes me laugh so hard, she doesn't even have to say anything that funny. I just laugh at her! and beside she is freakin gorgeous...can you believe she is only 15?

I had more of her on my photo blog but i just got done with these and I wanted to post some her too! enjoy!

What is up with little boys and their wieners?

Seriously! Today we went out to eat and in the middle of dinner Kase announces to the restaurant that his wiener is sticking up.

"well quit playing with it" I said

"I didn't"

"Kase it doesn't stand up on it's own for no reason"

"Yes it does"

"Kase trust me I KNOW, it doesn't"

"Well why not?"

"Because when you touch it, then it stands up"

"Oh"

"And if you touch it too much it will fall off."

"No it won't"

"I am serious it will shrivel up and fall off"

"Oh I guess I won't play with it."

WHYYYYYY does he rub it like a wishing stone all freakin day long? Boys are fun!

8 things

I was tagged by meegs ... http://meeganlittlefield.blogspot.com/ to list 8 things I love...
1. Compliments...oh love to hear anything nice. I beat myself up so much it is just nice hear anything positive. It makes me feel like a good person.

2. Affection from my kids. I love hugs and kisses from them.

3. Oreo Cookies...yummy! I can eat a whole bag of them in a day!

4. Traveling. I am a huge traveler, I am not content staying in this town and not seeing whats out there. I love to go and do things, see new towns, visit friends, eat new foods! I love to travel.

5. Yoga...every time I go it kicks my butt and I still love it. It is the best kind of workout! I took a class last week with my good friend Lisa and I am still sore! I was totally drained after we went but it is my favorite kind of exercise.

6. Peach anything, peach lotion, peach candles, air freashener...I love that smell!

7. My two passions....photography and scrapbooking. Photography has taken over my life lately so I haven't had time to do a lot of scrapbooking. But I love both and I am glad I have creative outlooks in my life!

8. My friends. I have a huge group of people who care about me. That is one of the things I am soo grateful for in my life. No matter where I have been I always walk away with at least one really good friend that I stay in contact with. It feels really good to have so many people care about me.

I finally found sometime...

although I am extremely behind with work I am desperately trying to pull myself out of this low point in my life so I scrap booked all day Sunday. I don't think I left my room I just scrapped and scrapped. Man it felt good to get something done you have noooo idea! I didn't help really with my current situation but at least I was able to get my mind of the sadness I have been feeling. I hate that I am missing something that wasn't mine to begin with.

I'm getting old!

This month bubba turned 6 and Sissy turned 4. Wow, I have a 6 year old! Crazy! We had a Oriental party that raaawked! We had Chinese food that was eaten with real chopsticks, I ordered each girl a parasol and each boy a sword and Chinese fighting stars. Plus I had custom made fortune cookies for each of the kids to take home! It was a great party! I didn't think I would have the energy to pull off a party this year, I even said I wasn't going to do one. Ha, I know myself MUCH better then that!

bwahahahhah!

Yes a year of preschool and what did she learn? NOTHING! oh wait she thinks an O is a zero and an I is a one...and her name starts with "rainbow, rainbow" He he! I wonder what next year will bring!

I had to post this here too!

I have these on my photo blog also ( http://elementsphotography.blogspot.com/ ) BUT I had to share them here too! I have wanted to get shots like these forever! I am so glad that I did!

the baby bird

Macie woke me up real early the other day telling me that she had caught a bird, when I opened my eyes I realized that she was holding a baby bird! I guess the little thing had flown into the window, Kase and Macie had heard the noise and the went outside and saw a baby bird that could fly...How cool is that! So I wrapped the poor liitle thing up in a towel and set it outside. Macie was so worried about the little bird so we had to bring it inside. Later that day, I had totally forgotten about it, when I came home it was not where I had left it. We looked all over for the dumb thing but we finally found it flying around in our house! We chased the thing forever trying to get it down. It was soo hillaious we were just running around the house chasing it down. Finally Macie got a hold of the thing, I figured that it was feeling better and we could let it go, I grab my camera and we headed outside, I was messing with my settings, Macie started to cry, the bird squeezed out of her hand and flew away. Get this, she was bawling because I didn't get a picture of the bird before it left. She makes me laugh so hard!

New pictures taken by the ever so talented...

Meegan, from Meegan Littlefeild Photography. She is amazing. Love the girl to pieces, I love her photographic vision and I love her personality. Apparently I do this face that says something quite sexual and she picked up on it...all throughout the shoot she was saying show me the "....face" yeah that doesn't work when a girl is taking your pictures...all I kept doing was cracking up!

The benefit of being depressed

I don't eat and I spend money, in fact I have spent tons of money this round. I guess I try to find something to fill the void, it works momentarily but it never is enough. And even though I recognize what I am doing, I still do it searching for some kind of satisfaction.

So I got a whole bunch of new clothes, I have lost a lot of weight and nothing fits me anymore, so I thought why not! Got some clothes, bought Shayla a birthday outfit and hooked my self up with some cute new shirts and necklaces.

But the most exciting part in this is that I got was a new lens...oh yes and this one just might make me happy for a couple days, at least it will keep me distracted. My lens is a 24-70mm 2.8L Yeah baby, it cost more then my camera and I am so excited to finally have it. It is freakin huge, I am going to have to start lifting or something to be able to shoot with it on!

We had a great weekend!

With the kids in town I thought it would be fun if we headed over to Moab, Ut and to Arches Nation Park. We were hoping we could leave by 5 or so, get there around midnight, set up camp in the dark and then wake up cook breakfast and be off to enjoy the beautiful park. Yeah didn't really go that way. We left late (surprise, surprise) got there at 1:00 am, drove around to find a camping spot and there weren't any so Justin suggest we just go into town and see if we could find a hotel....

Me:WHAT they have hotels here? Why didn't you tell me that in the first place...

J: Well I thought you wanted to camp...

Me: No I just thought that was our only option!

Seriously if I would have known that, I could have saved $400 in camping equipment!

So a hundred dollars later we found a hotel to "camp" at. Moab is actually a much bigger town then I thought. I was totally surprised. Hum I have lived in Utah more then 15 years and I had no idea!

So hiking was a lot of fun. We hit four different hikes, spent a lot of time together with the kids. Jayce proudly announced that we were going to a super national park. Never new it got to the "super" status but cool! Macie decided that she need to fill her shoes with sand because her feet were hurting and we watch a bunny try to commit suicide (not really we just scared it and he tried to jump off a cliff) The park was sooo beautiful! We will have to go back and do it again!

I have no idea where the captin morgan pose came from but everytime one of us would reach the top of the trail we would hit the pose....so we had to get pictures of it!

I look like I fit in to Mormonville

Shay, Jayce, and Ty are here visiting for the weekend, I have been running around getting things ready for our trip to Zion and Arches this weekend. Picture me....huge SUV, 5 kids, running around town. I feel like I finally fit in. Typical Mormon mommy, with her kids 2 years apart...yeah that is sooooo not going to be me....evah! Sorry mormonville I am refusing to join. Have a great weekend! I promise I will try to be back to my regualr posting next week!!

It is surprizing to me...

when you have made a horrible choice who stands by you and who walks away. I think I will always be surprised by the support I have had these last couple days. I have made a lot of bad choices. I am so grateful for the support I have received, grateful for the prayers, thoughts, advice and love that everyone has shown me. I guess throughout my life I have learned the hard way, always have and maybe always will. There is so much going on in my life, so many struggles that I have to overcome. I am so glad that I have such an amazing support system to fall back on, I am grateful that I have friends who understand me enough that they will support me through anything. I really don't feel like I deserve the love I have felt this last little while and I am truly grateful!

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Since when does he not need me?

He just decieded that he that he wanted to ride his bike without training wheels so Justin took them off. I figured that I would sit out there with him, run along the side of him and encourage him, catch him when he tipped over....that is so not how it happened. He got on it and took off and that was it! No help from me he just did it! What a punk!

Another one bites the dust

and another ones gone, another ones gone, another one bites the dust!

Kase has lost his 2nd tooth! This time wasnt as exciting as the last time, he even fell asleep not holding his tooth fairy box. Now he has two missing teeth on the bottom and he is so cute! I can't wait for the top ones to start coming out cause pictures of that will be priceless! I totally wonder if he will get my big front teeth, I sure hope not!

Some days I feel like I have nothing to post

but today I have sooo much to type about! It is funny how much I want to write! I had an interesting weekend...

I had a shoot Saturday night, the couple didn't show up and i forgot my client book so I had no way of contacting them so I went to drive home. I was sitting at the light and some kid ran into the back of me. Yep my cars not even 2 months old and I get hit. Luckily it was just a tiny little car and I was the big one cause his entire hood was pushed up against his windshield. So we pull over and the first thing he says to me is how sorry he is and please don't call the cops because his licence is suspended. Thinking that was the nice thing to do I agree and I try to get his insurance information. He insist that he write it all down and every time I try to look at the card he turns it away from me. I finally grab it and double check it and what do you know he totally messed up the numbers...and yes it was on purpose. He starts to get antsy so I ask him for his phone number name and I write down his licence plate number. After he left I started to feel like I got screwed over so I started calling the numbers he gave me and none of them are right. So I call the cops...they catch him on his way to Hurricane (which is like 15 mins away) and they bring him back to where I am. He gets on the phone to his mom and he just starts bawling. She says she is going to sell his motorcycle, he says that his girlfriend doesn't want to marry him anymore. He is seriously upset and I feel totally bad for him. It seems like he is having a bad time in his life. I kinda wish I hadn't called the cops on him but I thought that would at least get me the right insurance information...well turns out he did have any insurance at all!

So lesson learned when you are nice to people you get screwed over...I'm so kidding!

I am happy with who I am....

It seems like all of my life I have been searching for acceptance from other people. I have always need approval from everyone that I meet. It drives me crazy when people don't like me and I tend to over compinsate to win over the person that doesn't like me. I have done alot to change and mold into this person that I think everyone else wants me to be. You think that I'd grow out of it but it is something that I have been working on all my life. What is cool is that I am now finding people who like the weird corky things about me. People who actually embrace the side of me I have kept hidden for so long. It is weird how that happens, weird how I can find people who like the actually me. It is becoming easier to let my walls down, easier to love me, and to let people in. That is a really cool feeling.

My Crazy Sister

Check out her apartment....it is above her head....it is downtown slc right by the gateway. it totally fits her ! I am sooo glad that things are looking good for her...she is such a nut!

Poor, poor Zoi!

She is not feeling very good, she is sooo weak I am really scared she is going to die! It is the sadest thing watching her just sleep and sit there. She barely has enough energy to breath...poor thing I hope she doesnt die :(!

UPDATE: she died last night, it was so sad. poor little thing i guess the guy at the pet store was right i couldnt handle a camelion.

Guess who came to our house...

The tooth fairy!!! Kase has been sooo excited, he has 5 loose teeth and one finally fell out Saturday Night ...get this we were out on a date when it fell out...and it was 10:00 when I picked the kids up so the tooth fairy had to wait and come Sunday. (I told kase she was in bed so that I could take a pictures of his cute little tooth! Man this makes me feel old! I hate this milestones, I remember when I was sooo excited to see Kase roll or walk and now with each one I realize I cant have time back with them. I want to keep them little, I want to sing lullabies to them forever, kiss them till the run away...If only!